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Bi sexual guy, never had gender identity issues as a child, or even as a teen. It's just been like, the last 3 years I've really become interested in transsexual women and think I want to be one too.
I just hate masculinity, I always have acted straight for my family and such but, I don't like body hair, I don't like my muscles, and I just don't like the way my body looks.
My is surprisingly cool about it, she's kind of in shock because she's never seen it coming. Just have always been a normal boy, playing with hotwheels and riding bikes and such. But she has been talking to me alot and has started to create a lot of doubt in my mind.
If I could have anything, I really wish I could be a woman (or at least make my body more feminine, not just dress up) but, I start to wonder if it's not the best thing for me.
I'm going to see a psychiatrist next week to talk about this but in the mean time, I'm still turning it over and over in my head.
Just don't know what to do. Can't decide if this is just a phase, if I want to do this just because I want the appearance of a woman, or if I really do have some gender identity issues.
But then we go back to the original problem, I really have never shown any symptoms of having a problem. Just in the last 2-3 years that I've been thinking about this and now that I've turned 18, I start to think that this could actually become a reality.
Your experience sounds similar to my own. Don't worry about not fitting the often-told trans narrative about knowing from birth. People realize and voice at many different stages in their life.
As to having masculine interests as a child, that doesn't necessarily mean that you have a male gender identity. At a young age, social judgements about what is acceptable for us to do may mean that we never develop our interests in feminine activities. There is nothing wrong with a girl liking to ride bikes, playing with cars, etc and still identifying as a girl. Likewise, with a boy playing house, doing needlepoint, etc and still identifying as a boy.
It sounds like you are in a good place, having both family support and access to professional assistance. Take your time to explore your identity and presentation. It's important to discover what you need to be comfortable with yourself.